orientation today was okay.
i think i woke up on the wrong side of my bed today. very grouchy.

i dont want to go to school.
no seriously. i dont think i want to pursue lasalle anymore.
how now?

woke up at twelve almost voiceless.
must be the booze and fags last night.
i should have known better. knowing that im sick still like that.

coloring my hair in 1.5 hours time!!
what color this time.. hrrms.

its freaking 6am on a monday morning and i just got home. lemme rub it in again can.. people are waking up from school. i just got home from what i could say one of the best days this week.

worked from like 9.30AM till freaking tenPM. freaking tiring.. hazel and enling came to visit me for a brief 2 minutes before my break. melvin and lena came to visit me for a brief 5 minutes before my dinner break. how swell. lesbian tendencies acting up. HAHAHHA.

bev and i are becoming mos-girls. we're there everyday. twice daily. thats how much we love mos. till we get chased out everyday at 11. enlai was so nice. he came all the way to town just to pass me a gap bag full of stuff for me and everyone else at home. got a von dutch ORIGINAL, a tee and a DRESS?!! from my bro. it was actually quite sad looking at the bag. and the photos on enlai's digital cam. danny lost weight. seeing his recent pictures were quite upsetting. miss him so much. i'd rather not have those stuff at all. serious.

went to kopitiam with bev and min after work. laughed over the silliest things. till bev and i were crying. not literally but we were tearing.. non stop!! hahah. prawn head-ers those two.

afterwhich was ktv with wai, melly and cat. and while i was outside the partyworld place, i saw roy,kelvyn and yinxing. so yadayada. and roy asked his signature question to yinxing.. 'how old do you think so is?'..'twenty four?'.. and roy started laughing as usual. joined them at the ktv (another room) together with ed, melvin, mun and steph. freaking funny the songs they sang. the buttocks one.. william hung.. i wanna make love to you tonight.. hahah. and then went back to the room upstairs to find even more people there!

so in the end cat, wai and company went to play billard. so i went back to melvin's room to find even more people there. the people there can just go join the singapore idol and win lah. they're damn pro. and soccer watching at mandarin hotel after that. questions asked by steph and i which made ed laugh at us the entire morning. 'i want denmark to win.. oh anyway what color are they?'..'how long is half time?'.. lotsa beer, fag. makes me feel even worst. considering that im sick. i sound like a guy. serious. supper at chinatown was alright.. the black chicken soup was damn good. and the dirty jokes cracked by ed and kelvyn made me NOT wanna eat anymore porridge.

ride home was fast and furious. hahahha. yinxing drives as thou there's no tomorrow. quite scary. thank God i made it home in one piece.

overall, good night/morning after work.

..how to find anyone who looks so darn freaking good in army print pants with rubber below?..
..how to find a girl who looks so fucking good in white pants together with black undies, not so nicely styled hair and looks so freaking good?..

i literally threw away my new substance shoe today. not really throw it away but i gave it away. so this morning i realised that i actually have a pair of substance shoe that i bought months ago. so i wore it to work and i almost died. now i have like 6 blisters on my two feet lah. bev is god sent. thank goodness she passed me her slippers so that i can change into it after work.

full shift tomorrow. dead.

bad bad bad day.
its one of those days whereby...
-you get bird shit on your hair at fucking 920 in the morning before you go to work.
-as part of the multimedia training for work, you suddenly realise that fashion marketing is not where you want to go.
-you wish you were like everyone else going to some poly.
-every malay girl at work looks exactly the same. you get so confused.
-you suddenly get very very scared about school.
-you suddenly get very very afraid of the stress thats gonna come to you when you start schooling and working at the same time.
-you want to cry over every little thing.
-on your way home, you just feel like crying and whining.
-your feet freaking aches.
-you are working afternoon shift tomorrow on a saturday.
-you are working FULL shift on sunday. which means no church.
-you feel as thou you're losing your sanity.
-you feel so sick and tired of everything.
-you just feel like crying. and whining. but yet at the same time you dont want to trouble anyone.
-you're down with high fever, bad cough and a equally bad cough.
-its been six months since christmas. exactly.
-you just want to cry.
-you wish that somehow, you will have the guts to kill yourself.

everytime the 25th draws near, i get all upset and grouchy.
i blame everyone for everything. i blame everyone but me. and then there are times i blame myself for everything.

im never gonna love christmas like i did before.
im never gonna love december like i did before.

22nd, the last family dinner.
23rd, noodlebar. the tears in mambo.
24th, timsum. the tears at clarkequay.
25th, the airport. the tears. the hugs. the dropping of bags. the everything. the mh608. the evening. the departure.

fuck. its freaking 6months. shouldnt i get over this?
and ive made it a point not to talk to anyone about this tonight or tomorrow night because i think ive whined enough to my friends. and yah to those who had to hear me whine about this whole issue again and again, im sorry.

its a little scary how soon im starting work again. today's my last 'free' day before i get into the whole cycle of work again. also not to mention.. this time i will have to learn how to juggle work AND school together. and i SUCK at time management. well.. gotta learn the hard way.

feeling so fucking stressed out recently all i want to do is smoke. dammit. im feeling so bummed out even before school starts. fuck. and moreover, next monday to thursday ive got things on everyday. how to squeeze time in to have some fun before school starts?

as of late, im feeling super screwed up. fuck. and ive been neglecting God in this whole process. the job finding and all. shite.

june28th, singapore to newyork non stop. I WANT I WANT I WANT. GO THERE AND NOT COME BACK.

bev and i got the job at zara! and we're starting on friday.
and we rejected topshop cos the woman was a bitch.

anyway im currently feeling quite lost.
and scared.
im losing my sanity.

how am i gonna cope with school and work??

as my sister said, if my bro could do it.. i supposed i could too.

but im just very afraid.
very very. ACK!!!

i want a guybestfriend who's gay. so in other words, i want a gaybestfriend. any suggestions?

you know i really want that pair of maryjanes.. but why the hell is it selling in every single shop? whatever happened to.. LIMITED EDITION. HELLO HELLO HELLO?

i WILL NOT shop tomorrow. im at the pit of poverty and i am only going to town tomorrow to go job hunting with bev and min. and not to shop. not even to window shop. OKAY DAPHNE??!!

so i went to cut my hair yesterday and...... it looks the same. like as thou i didnt even step into the salon at all. melvinkor didnt want to do something too outofthebox for me cos my mom will prolly hate it and his mom will prolly scold him. bah! disadvantages. coloring my hair next monday. FINALLY. CANT WAIT!!

after which was chinatown, greatworld, and then ktv. i just found a great place to shop. quiet, nice stuff and all. hahahah. right. how lame.

gonna go job hunting with bev tomorrow MORNING at 1030 in town. wish us luck.

my sister lost her phone. she left it on the top of her car.. and drove off. how bimbo.

tasha is in love with the game UNO.
have you guys seen the barbie UNO cards? its so gorgeous and nice and everything else. i want i want!! anyway. yah so i played like 5 rounds with tasha. and she won like 4 outta 5 rounds. and i didnt even help her lah! shes becoming a pro at this man. how depressing for me to lose to a 4 and a half year old girl.

tasha is in love with the game UNO.
have you guys seen the barbie UNO cards? its so gorgeous and nice and everything else. i want i want!! anyway. yah so i played like 5 rounds with tasha. and she won like 4 outta 5 rounds. and i didnt even help her lah! shes becoming a pro at this man. how depressing for me to lose to a 4 and a half year old girl.

so i cancelled all late night plans last night, just because im supposed to give tuition at 11 this morning. so i make an effort to sleep early, wake up at 1030.. take the lrt and yadayada. only to find out the clever boy had friends over to do a project and forgot about tuition. agh. waste my time. dammit. men.. they should all be locked in cages. yes wai, beks, eve, ringo? and no, im not being sadistic. wait till you hear our 'men should be locked in cages' theory. haha. and also those men that can be kept away from the cages.. *nudge* hahahhaha.

anyway. got a haircut later.. im gonna cut my hair short short short. wanna do an undershave. im serious.

im really pissed off cos its freaking MID JUNE. i left mambo at like END JAN. and you know what? now... they come and tell me that i have to pay for this MISSING MEN'S SHIRT that was lost in isetan wisma. WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKINGHELL? twenty bucks you know. can make me pay 135 for my christiandior ring instead of 155. can make me pay 109 for my third pair of maryjanes instead of 129. okay. now i sound like some stingy poker but fuck.. why the hell should i pay for some fucking missing stock in wisma? i was there for less than a month. suffered under the eyes of the fucking-wank-too-much-till-hand-has-pus motherfucking malay BABI? and you want me to come out with twenty bucks? just now mr-i-love-to-peep-into-girl's-changing-room, -forever-interested-in-anything-with-boobs-and-a-pussy assholerudy had to call me and ask me to pay for it. fuck it. no way am i paying for that shite. THESE TWO MEN SHOULD BE FREAKING LOCKED IN A CAGE. AND THEY CANNOT EVEN HAVE THE BOWL OF BREAD CRUMBS.

saturday and sunday. the aftermath.

the good::
meeting up with crystal for dinner.
sitting inside the tent thats outside taka with melvinkor, roy, huang and kelvyn till 3am.
the mini lecture from melvinkor that actually made me reflect alot.
sitting in the coldstorage trolley at 1am while huang pushed me ard!
buying a green halter from toss.
buying a dkny tube.
meeting up with bev and min. loads of laughter.
visiting the flea market in clarkequay.
buying a bimbo book for 2 bucks ONLY!
walking from 1130 till 7. non stop.
realising that there are so many nice stuff thats on sale.

the bad::
im very very very broke now.
im now deeply in love with the flat gucci beige sandal thats ONLY 360 after discount. usual was 480.
also madly in love with the flat HELMUTLANG slipper thats 310!!
would like another pretty ring. this time from christiandior. 50%off so ONLY 155.
buying tops i really wont wear.
telling huang, "i really hope no one i know sees me."

the ugly::
im really really very very broke now.
i really really really really love the christiandior ring.
my feet really really hurts after walking for like 8hours straight on 3inch high wedge heels.
after saying the line to huang, i hear this really loud.. "DAPHNE!" oooops saw trudy! how em-bress-ing (mambo way) LAH.
min, bev and i stepped into JEANPERRIE today. dont ask why. HORRID!

i swear im so going to murder cain!!!!!! seriously. he just had to tell joseph the secret. now its all exposed. AHHH!!!

anyway just got home from harry harry with eve. just the two of us. just like the rest of the couples around. two two two two. so..... the two of us. i fell asleep during the movie lah. and all i thought about was food. all im thinking about now, is still food. damn hungry. only ate ONE miserable prata for dinner at like SEVEN.

im going to kill cain!!!!

last night, i dreamt about the pairs of shoes i didnt get yesterday. how depressing. and i really really want to get it soon. and last night, when i came home, i went to hide my two new pairs of shoes under my table. so i thought my mom wouldnt be so clever and realise that i actually bought another two pairs of shoes. but just now while having dinner, she said.. 'i went away for afew days and you bought more shoes.' oooooops. caught in the act.

today at work, i took a 2 hour nap.. and spent 20 minutes cutting, filing and buffing my nails. and spent the rest of the day sealing envelopes.

no more work!!! YIPEEEE.

HELLO EVERYONE. ASK ME OUT FROM NOW TILL THE 5TH OF JULY. OOKAY OOOOOKAY!

i bought 2 pairs of shoes this evening. how horrid of me. now im at the pit of poverty. chin ni bought 2 pairs too. how horrid of me to influence her to do that.

met moe just now to collect my bag from him. danny posted it to him. moe is so nice!! and damn funny lah.

somehow, im gonna miss work.

its one of those days at work whereby -the file that you're looking for is right at the bottom, stuck in that small little corner. -you get paper cuts four times, in a short span of three hours. -you have so many things to do, there is no time for a nap at all. -you have to carry the freaking heavy ladder from the 2nd storey to the 1st. -your bosses are not around. -you realise that your computer actually has internet access to it. -everyone's slacking. -its the second last day of work.

mom's coming back tonight!!! finally. the past 4 days were so horrid. ive not eaten home cooked food since last thursday, ive not had home made breakfast since monday. neither me nor my brother is offering to wash the clothes and sweep the floor. AND I ACTUALLY SWEPT THE FLOOR LAST NIGHT COS I WAS FORCED TO DO SO!!! it wasnt that bad. haha.

im so fat now, i feel like a mother cow.

im so jealous.

ed is in japan now.

AGH!!!

mahjongmahjong!!!

i had a buffet dinner at siamkitchen. fantastic stuff. freaking thirty bucks gone. damn im broke. anyways.. i bought a small pouch. its damn nice. but i dont need it at all. so i found a reason to purchase it. to put my phone and my ez link. which is damn dumb cos i already have two wallets. one for money. one for cards. now this.. ack!

i sacked zhangtaitai!! those who knows the story.... yea man. finally. no more... buddhist books and ack!

10 Years Ago, I...
1. was in st marg's primary sch. 2/3.
2. was a spoilt brat. had everything i yearned for.
3. had really long hair.
4. had good grades. hahaha.

5 Years Ago, I...
1. was in st marg's secondary. 1/3.
2. became very playful. didnt study.
3. attended swimming lessons held by st margs.
4. remember neoprint sessions after our computer lessons.

3 Years Ago, I...
1. was in sec 3. my superrr naughty year in school.
2. got caught for some of the naughty stuff i did.
3. got grounded for the first time ever.
4. shifted house.

A Year Ago, I...
1. was in bukit merah secondary.
2. clubbed during the O level period.
3. got drunk quite a couple of times. ack!
4. smoked quite alot.

This Year, I...
1. spent the last 6 months doing nothing.
2. colored my hair four times.
3. am trying to quit smoking.
4. went clubbing less than 10 times.

Yesterday, I...
1. went to the ktv for 5 hours!!
2. went to chinablack.
3. met cain.
4. met enlai.

Today, I...
1. didnt sleep the entire sat night and managed to stay awake during service!
2. took a 6 hour nap when i came home.
3. puked.
4. spent the entire night listening to the original shanghai divas redefined. good stuff!

Tomorrow I will...
1. try to take a nap during work.
2. be meeting some old friends for dinner.
3. have to make my own bed, prepare my own breakfast. BAH!
4. not shop!!!

Next month I will...
1. be in lasalle-sia. shite, thats damn soon. agh.
2. be in a total new environment.
3. hopefully have newly colored hair.
4. buy my mom and sis lovely birthday gifts!

Next year I will...
1. hopefully still be in lasalle-sia.
2. hopefully manage to save enough money for a trip to big apple.
3. become even fatter.
4. try not to buy any shoes.

wo deng zhe ni hui lai.
wo de bu dao ni de ai qing.

classics.

suffering from a major lack of sleep.

lets see, met enlai yesterday in town to pass him the envelope of stuff for danny. he's going to meet jerrold and danny. lucky lucky him. and he's so nice.. he said he'll take pictures of my bro and pass them to me when he's back. asked me whether i wanted anything from LA and SF. but nahhh. oh those going to the states or something, go get the CLEAN fragrance. its damn nice. damn.. clean. okay.. cheesyyy weeeesy.

met cain after he finished work. major bitching session. and also a little big of window shopping. (g-star girls heavy duty pants, levis new range of jeans thats arriving soon, white capris, wedge heels, black converse sneakers.) and anyway, what a bitch.. think she what, fashion icon is it. think she started the birkenstock craze ah. my ass ah! talk so much about how common birks are nowadays and how its irritating her cos she has quite a few pairs and now the whole singapore is wearing them. and when cain asked, so when did you get your first pair? oh this year about feb. helloooo young lady? the birks thing was so 5 minutes ago puh-lease. and if i remember correctly, the birks craze started like damn long ago lah. so dont act as thou you're the creator of the birks-crazy-in-spore and you're all that. by the way, that was a very ugly fake of the tiffany&co bracelet you were wearing.

after which met melvin korkor while i was waiting for wai. getting my hair cut soon. and colored. finally! i have like an inch of black hair now. horrid.

after which was chinablack with azhar, wai, yadayada. queue was so freaking long. thank goodness we managed to cut here and there. so thus got in quite early. and i left like around 10? haha.

met evelyn and beks.. and guess what we did from 11pm to 4am. we....... went to the KTV and sang our lungs out. bimbo songs, funny songs, sad songs, dancing songs.. (and yes, SPICE GIRLS!! im a sucker for them. and beks is a closet spice girl fan!!) so we were basically singing and dancing with those funny actions. even stood up to dance around the room lah. jump around and all. damn fun!! havent had such fun in a ktv session for ages!! and of cos there were songs that were just meant for us to sit up there and put our arms around each other and sway!! -thats what friends are for,pengyou-

eve came over to my place and by the time we got ready for bed, it was 5ish. so we decided on hollandvee for breakfast. didnt sleep a single wink lah. almost slept in church today.

i finally bought the original shanghai divas collection redefined cd. so freaking goooood.

my mom's leaving me for 4 days. shes leaving tomorrow and im damn upset!!!! no breakfast in the morning, no one to cook nice home cooked meals. agh!! and shes damn funny lah. she always gets damn worried whenever im alone at home. so she bought like alot of cup noodles, chips, chocolates, fruits, icecream and even tampons for me. like as thou stocking up.

last week of wait. cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!!

home on a friday night. ACKK. how great. was supposed to meet beks and eve in holland around 9ish but things got screwed up. miscommunication prob and its my fault.. bah!

school is starting in less than a month's time. and frankly,i am quite scared. new environment and all.. bah. think i'll just be some anti social student.. and be a geeeeek. yes? spells d-a-p-h-n-e all the way. and i was just thinking, after my O's i spent like 7 months slacking. outta this 7 months, what have i gained? freaking 7 months. and you know what? i think ive gained nothing. in these 7 months, i spent wayyy too much on things that i dont even need. i spent lots of time 'hanging out'. i spent lots of money on cigs. lots of money on cab fares. and what exactly have i gained outta all these? nothing. and im feeling so fucking useless and yadayada now. feeling like crap.

mom's leaving on monday for a short holi with e relatives. will only be back on thursday. i have no idea how im going to survive alone. no maid, no mom. no one to make my bed. no one to cook dinner for me. no one to wash my clothes. no one to clean my room. no one to prepare breakfast. no one to bring the papers in for me while im having my breakfast. no one to clear my table. no one to draw my blinds. no one to clear my bags. no one to cut fruits for me. those 4 days are gonna be horrid days. i can sense it in my blood. and on top of that, 4 days at home alone with my brother,david. can anyone hear my agony? i will prolly have to buy dinner back for that lazy ass every night. dunno his car for what. cannot drive and buy. must make me walk. ass. and now i've come to realise..... how reliant i am on the maid and my mom.

im in this highly irritatable mood now. no idea why. maybe its cos im thinking too much again. maybe its just the after effects of being home on a friday night.. (after going thru mon-thurs looking forward to friday night,the start of a weekend.) and also cos this whole freaking week was so hectic. work.. tuition.. spending time with the girls and all. and the thought of giving tuition tomorrow morning is such a major turn off. dont even feel like going out tomorrow. maybe i should just stay at home on a saturday too. makes it sound better.. 'oh i stayed at home on fri night and sat.' sounds fuller. yes? why should i even bother meeting enlai (when he's so freaking nice to constantly ask me hows things.. hows e family..) to pass him e whole envelope of photos? cos i seriously think it wouldnt matter to danny anyway. not much of a difference. just some pictures of.. oh yah his family in singapore.

maybe its just the thought of school starting.
maybe its just the stress.
maybe its just the realisation that i have to be dependant once school starts. this means doing an ala-danny.. studying and working at the same time.
maybe its just the lack of nicotine for NINE days.
maybe its just me. as usual. me me me me me.

orientation on the 29th. ahhh. maybe i should do a kelvyn trick.. go to school.. get the impt stuff.. and say.. "err im sorry but ive gotta go settle some stuff. can i leave first?" and off he went.

i seriously need a hair color job badly. desperately.

i recently gathered many photos for my bro. cos enlai's gonna meet him in san francisco. and then my sister said, 'girl, why are you trying so hard? if he even bothered, he will call home more often.. he will make the effort.'

i gathered pictures from the bali trip, family events, everything he has been missing out on and probably dont care.

next week is my last week at work. can you just hear me rejoicing?

today, i took a 45 minutes nap after lunch. boss is out till monday. woohoo.

God has taught me alot about judging people lately. im trying. im learning. and also He has been teaching me about forgiving. which is damn hard.

im trying to stand.
im learning to walk.

i dont think ive said this before, actually i think most of the time i say things against her. but all i have to say now is, i love my mom. so so so much. -stretches arms wideeee- so much more than that. and she loves me even more than that. the things she does for me. treats me like a princess, makes sure i know what im doing, hides my shoes for me so that my bro doesnt see my new shoes, wakes up every morning just to make breakfast for me and then watch me go into the lift, makes sure i come home to a clean room everyday even though most of the time when i leave my house.. my room looks like a storm just swept through it, asks me hows my friends... everything else. and yes i love her still even though she steals my clothes sometimes!!!

getting a little emo now.

i love my sister too!!!! dont know what i'll be without her. its a little funny how i can talk to lena (who's 35) so well.. and yet sometimes i cant really talk to my sister. i guess its the whole sibling thing. you cant exactly be 100% open to your sibling right? and i used to smoke with lena also lah! and she dishes out great advices too. both lena and my sis. i really hope lena will be my relative soon!!! yea yea ya? my sister was the one that spoilt me big time when i was younger.. i guess cos she was flying and all. i only used colorpencils if they're from the gap. clothes only from dkny, the gap, or guess. i guess things have changed and ive learnt alot since all the attention given to me from e family went to the girls. but well.. im living fine without those materialistic stuff. color pencils, gap or not gap... also used to color only what. no difference. clothes, branded or not branded, also see the fit and how one carries it off what..

nuff said. not gonna say that i love my dad, eldest bro, or my bro in law.. off lah! off.

guess what, guess what? i had my last stick of cig last wed. so its almost a week. goodness. so fucking proud of myself. =) shall go get that pair of black converse sneakers to reward myself. i need motivation okay. no.. actually i should not smoke for an even longer time. and reward myself with that pair of gstar jeans. the temptation to smoke is everywhere. but im trying trying. trying my best!!

today at work, while carrying this stupid boxful of envelopes, my nail broke... ACKKKK!!! and it was my favourite nail (?!) lah. it belonged to the finger which ive been wearing my ring on. damn. and then i spent like the next 40minutes during work cutting and filing the rest of my nails so that its all of the same length. oh yah i didnt mention, now at work.. this other temp girl and i are confined to the filing room. which means we're alone most of the time.. we take naps.. cut our nails.. file our nails.. bitch.. laugh.. take stupid photos.. and yadayada.

went out with my mom just now. been ages since its just the two of us.... had a great time and all.... bitching, err. yes. lol. and a teeeeny weeeeny bit of shopping. i actually didnt want to buy a couple of things lah. can you imagine.... im so amazed. but i think i will feel better buying things with my own money now? so.... yupp. being a good daughter. *rolls eyes*

ACKKKK. work tomorrow followed by tuition at 730. agh.

have i ever told you that joy doesnt mean fun?
you dont get joy all the time when you're having fun.
and you dont need to have fun, to experience joy.

am i making sense?

and today i felt joy.

it was walking from taka to cine to forum to tanglinmall with bev and huimin. and then from tanglin all the way back to luckyplaza with evelyn. and all these walks were enjoyable, be it with or without a conversation. with or without picking up saga seeds in the middle of the road.

and then it was festival of praise. on a funnier note, i would say it was a rollercoaster ride. ask me why,ask me why!!! the guy next to evelyn kept humping. (please, dont think dirty.) as in he kept moving every single second. it was as thou he had worms up his ass or something. and it took alot for me not to say anything, or even look in his direction. and i didnt!! all i did was try to contain my laughter. on a not so funny note, fop this year was refreshing. it was more or a reflection time, and giving thanks. i guess in a way or another i really needed this 'refresher' because of the past 2 weeks or so. been really hectic, got my thoughts wrong, values wrong. everything was quite wrong basically. but im feeling much better now. thoughts quite straight, im learning/trying to hope in faith.

as much as i would like to not whine about danny.. and think of him, i have to be reminded of him everywhere i go. receive sms-es from enlai, went to blackjack and knowing matthew knows quite alot about my bro. yadayada. my mom asking me to call him to ask him whether he wants her recipe for his fav chicken. now everyone go.... awwww.

believe it or not, since i got my paycheque on tuesday... ive only bought a bag and a pair of shoes from exodus. (both discounted!!!).. damn proud of myself. and today was also birkenstock hunting with bev and huimin. we went to like the two birks in town. and even forum to look at the betulas!! -take note, white and gold birks, gorgeous!!- now now....... we're gathering people to buy birks online!! the more people we get, the cheaper shipping fees will be. and birks overseas are cheaper. if we can get about ten people, it will be about 40% off the birk's prices now in singapore!!! so... if you wanna join in.. the more the merrier, sms me or sth. i should be getting three pairs. (hey essentials.) *rolls eyes* anyway... shall see. we were damn aunty. we kept telling each other.. 'eh if you want get something from here -points to shop-, tell me k. i can get blablah percent off.' and we do that every single time we pass by a shop which we know someone or yadayada.

after fop was coffee with evelyn at lips. actually it wasnt really coffee. we didnt even have a proper conversation. we basically just sat and read our books. while enjoying the silence and each other's company. was amazingly good. =)

i need to meet enlai by 13thJune to pass him the things that i wanna pass to danny cos he's going to LA and NY to visit jerrold and danny. aghhh. can i please hide in his suitcase and take SQ12? please!!!

the thing now is, what do i have to give danny?

im so so so angry. i woke up at 10am for tuition at 11am. and the stupid bitch called me at 10.20 to tell me their whole family is out now. cant rush back in time. ask me to change to 1pm. i said im busy. so cancelled. AGH!!!

im feeling so 'BUSY'. seriously. saturday ive got to give tuition at freaking ELEVEN in the freaking MORNING. excuse me? like that even saturdays i need to get up early... how to get enough sleep? fuckkk.

i hate being busy. but yet again, it keeps me busy. and that means i wont do stupid things.. no time to smoke even. damn.

yesterday was fun.. or rather last night. went to hollandvee with eve and beks! bitching, and...... heart attack with this 3 strangers. who turned out to know some of our friends. haha.

and it was town to meet baduk, wai and boy.

and it was holland AGAIN till 4am.

HAPPY VESAK DAYYYY!!!!

i was so fucking disgusted after reading an sms last night i almost literally puked. and im not lying.